THAT GIRL

THAT GIRL

So many years of restriction

Lost in the city of perdition

Everyone around seem to be doing fine

Laughing, living and a ll you can mention

But all i did was to just exist,

No moments, no stories i’d rather not take the risk

Blending in was not the problem for i knew the drill

The girl of many talents but i held back still

The little i do i get so many applauds.

I wonder what will happen when i release it all

I am that girl that seeks perfection

I am that girl that bottles up emotion,

I am that girl that is scared of attention,

Yet i don’t want my life to be a fiction.

If only i knew how they do it,

Then i would be able to fix the pieces

If only i had a clue

Then the puzzle won’t be such a mystery,

If only i could figure it out,

The answers to the riddles, the key to the hurdles,

Then it would be much easier,

I am that girl who does not have the  luxury of easy,

But  I don’t want to be that girl anymore,

I want to live, laugh, love,

I think i’ve had enough,

I want to flip over and see what’s on the other side of the coin,

So many moments untouched,

So many opportunities unattained,

For fear that i might not be the same.

Maybe i am meant to be that kind of girl,

Maybe i was wired that way,

With all the perfect moments  in my head,

I know when to play and when to pause,

So calculated...yet this is not Algebra.

I don’t want to be Physics,

I want to be Chemistry,

 I want to mix various potions and  see the reactions,

I don’t want to be Facebook,

I want to be Snapchat,

With my stories so captivating, fam can’t pick a fave,

I don’t want to be a one-way route,

I want to be a T-junction,

With  several channels leading to one destination,

I want to live life like it ought to be lived,

I want to laugh hard till i can barely breathe,

I want to take risks that will make me free,

I just want to be me with nothing hidden.